Bitch, Look At Me Now

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May 2012

95 posts

if I never see you again 
I will always carry you 
inside 
outside

on my fingertips 
and at brain edges

and in centers 
centers 
of what I am of 
what remains.

-Charles Bukowski

Apr 30, 20128,610 notes
#charles bukowski #poetry #YES
Apr 30, 20122,368 notes
#hilary clinton #jason segel #god i hope this is real

April 2012

97 posts

Apr 27, 20125 notes
#community #my emotions #the vampire diaries #troy barnes #tv makes me cry #personal shit
Apr 27, 20124 notes
#grilled vegetable and goat cheese sandwiches #ezra pound cake #vegetarian awesomeness #sandwiches #art #food porn #WANT
Apr 26, 201235 notes
#help me i'm poor #LOL #kristen wiig #bridesmaids #gpoy
Play
Apr 26, 20129 notes
#lawless #tom hardy #shia lebouf #moonshine #prohibition #franklin county #virginia #gary oldman #booze!
Lover's Spit Broken Social Scene

All these people drinking lover’s spit,
swallowing words while giving head.

Apr 26, 201250 notes
#Broken Social Scene #Lover's Spit #You Forgot it in People #favorite
Apr 26, 201213 notes
#Draft Day #football #nfl #personal #ron swanson #drunk swanson #snake juice #parks and recreation #i'm a dork who loves the draft #i blame my father
Letters of Note → lettersofnote.com

On May 10th of 1934, a month after the publication of his new novel, Tender Is the Night, F. Scott Fitzgerald wrote to his friend, Ernest Hemingway, and asked for his honest opinion on the book — a tale about Dick and Nicole Diver, a couple based largely on mutual acquaintances of both Fitzgerald and Hemingway: Gerald and Sara Murphy.

Hemingway certainly responded with honesty. His engrossing reply — a letter that contains plenty of advice for any writer — can be read below.

(Note: Hemingway’s spelling is shown accurately. For example, he twice wrote “write” where, presumably, he meant “right.”)

(Source: Ernest Hemingway Selected Letters 1917-1961.)

Key West


28 May 1934

Dear Scott:

I liked it and I didn’t. It started off with that marvelous description of Sara and Gerald (goddamn it Dos took it with him so I can’t refer to it. So if I make any mistakes—). Then you started fooling with them, making them come from things they didn’t come from, changing them into other people and you can’t do that, Scott. If you take real people and write about them you cannot give them other parents than they have (they are made by their parents and what happens to them) you cannot make them do anything they would not do. You can take you or me or Zelda or Pauline or Hadley or Sara or Gerald but you have to keep them the same and you can only make them do what they would do. You can’t make one be another. Invention is the finest thing but you cannot invent anything that would not actually happen. 

That is what we are supposed to do when we are at our best—make it all up—but make it up so truly that later it will happen that way. 

Goddamn it you took liberties with peoples’ pasts and futures that produced not people but damned marvellously faked case histories. You, who can write better than anybody can, who are so lousy with talent that you have to—the hell with it. Scott for gods sake write and write truly no matter who or what it hurts but do not make these silly compromises. You could write a fine book about Gerald and Sara for instance if you knew enough about them and they would not have any feeling, except passing, if it were true. 

There were wonderful places and nobody else nor none of the boys can write a good one half as good reading as one that doesn’t come out by you, but you cheated too damned much in this one. And you don’t need to. 

In the first place I’ve always claimed that you can’t think. All right, we’ll admit you can think. But say you couldn’t think; then you ought to write, invent, out of what you know and keep the people’s antecedants straight. Second place, a long time ago you stopped listening except to the answers to your own questions. You had good stuff in too that it didn’t need. That’s what dries a writer up (we all dry up. That’s no insult to you in person) not listening. That is where it all comes from. Seeing, listening. You see well enough. But you stop listening. 

It’s a lot better than I say. But it’s not as good as you can do. 

You can study Clausewitz in the field and economics and psychology and nothing else will do you any bloody good once you are writing. We are like lousy damned acrobats but we make some mighty fine jumps, bo, and they have all these other acrobats that won’t jump. 

For Christ sake write and don’t worry about what the boys will say nor whether it will be a masterpiece nor what. I write one page of masterpiece to ninety one pages of shit. I try to put the shit in the wastebasket. You feel you have to publish crap to make money to live and let live. All write but if you write enough and as well as you can there will be the same amount of masterpiece material (as we say at Yale). You can’t think well enough to sit down and write a deliberate masterpiece and if you could get rid of Seldes and those guys that nearly ruined you and turn them out as well as you can and let the spectators yell when it is good and hoot when it is not you would be all right. 

Forget your personal tragedy. We are all bitched from the start and you especially have to hurt like hell before you can write seriously. But when you get the damned hurt use it—don’t cheat with it. Be as faithful to it as a scientist—but don’t think anything is of any importance because it happens to you or anyone belonging to you. 

About this time I wouldn’t blame you if you gave me a burst. Jesus it’s marvellous to tell other people how to write, live, die etc.

I’d like to see you and talk about things with you sober. You were so damned stinking in N.Y. we didn’t get anywhere. You see, Bo, you’re not a tragic character. Neither am I. All we are is writers and what we should do is write. Of all people on earth you needed discipline in your work and instead you marry someone who is jealous of your work, wants to compete with you and ruins you. It’s not as simple as that and I thought Zelda was crazy the first time I met her and you complicated it even more by being in love with her and, of course you’re a rummy. But you’re no more of a rummy than Joyce is and most good writers are. But Scott, good writers always come back. Always. You are twice as good now as you were at the time you think you were so marvellous. You know I never thought so much of Gatsby at the time. You can write twice as well now as you ever could. All you need to do is write truly and not care about what the fate of it is. 

Go on and write. 

Anyway I’m damned fond of you and I’d like to have a chance to talk sometimes. We had good times talking. Remember that guy we went out to see dying in Neuilly? He was down here this winter. Damned nice guy Canby Chambers. Saw a lot of Dos. He’s in good shape now and he was plenty sick this time last year. How is Scotty and Zelda? Pauline sends her love. We’re all fine. She’s going up to Piggott for a couple of weeks with Patrick. Then bring Bumby back. We have a fine boat. Am going good on a very long story. Hard one to write. 

Always your friend

Ernest

[Written on envelope: What about The Sun also and the movies? Any chance? I dint put in about the good parts. You know how good they are. You’re write about the book of stories. I wanted to hold it for more. That last one I had in Cosmopolitan would have made it.]

Apr 26, 20125 notes
#Ernest Hemingway #F. Scott Fitzgerald #Tender is the Night #That is what we are supposed to do when we are at our best—make it all up—but make it up so truly that later it will happen that way #advice #forget your personal tragedy #letters of note
“When I split an infinitive, God damn it, I split it so it will stay split.” —Raymond Chandler
Apr 26, 20121 note
#Raymond Chandler #LOL #split an infinitive
Scissors Eight and a Half

Hold me like an old friend,
hold me like an omen.

Apr 26, 201215 notes
#Scissors #Eight and a half #YES #FUCK YES
JUST GOT MY GRAD SCHOOL ACCEPTANCE

My family’s reaction (cause they’re all, bitch, stop being unemployed and drinking all the wine):

And now, all I wanna do is pop some bottles with everyone I know.

Seriously. All important events in my life must be sponsored by large quantities of alcohol. 

Now, good friends of mine, let’s get silly on booze!

Apr 26, 20121 note
#I'M ACCEPTED #PEOPLE LIKE ME #gifs galore #grad school #my parents are so proud #now let's get drunk #personal #anchorman #kid cudi #drake #pursuit of happiness #champagne and bitches #the national #matt berninger #silly!
Apr 25, 2012110 notes
#father john misty #aubrey plaza #hollywood forever cemetery sings #such a badass
Apr 24, 20123 notes
#awesome hair day #personal #blair waldorf #happy! #sometimes i love my hair #and it's outta control volume
Walk on By Isaac Hayes

the-theme-is:

ISAAC HAYES - Walk On By

From his 1969, “Hot Buttered Soul” LP

Holy fuck. THIS SONG. 

And my response:

Apr 24, 2012105 notes
#isaac hayes #walk on by #hot buttered soul LP #oh yeah
When someone asks what me and my friends did over the weekend

whatshouldwecallme:

Apr 24, 20121,274 notes
#always #booze! #my life is a cartoon #full of alcohol and sparkly things #and music #sometimes there is music
Grapevine Fires Death Cab for Cutie

Grapevine Fires | Death Cab for Cutie

So, Death Cab for Cutie is, finally, coming to Charlottesville (July 14th! Right before my birthday!). Fifteen year old me is freaking out (as is current me). My friends can tell you that I spend at least a day a year whining about how I’ve never seen Death Cab. So yeah, this is pretty major. Excuse me while I go lose my mind, Oprah audience style. Or Nicolas Cage style.

Or a mash up of the two freak out styles. CAN YOU IMAGINE?!

Apr 24, 201244 notes
#grapevine fires #death cab for cutie
“

I think it’s great for two people to be together. That is a good number. I think, that to keep it alive though, you can’t spend every day together. It wears out the magic. Love means nothing to me if it’s not fortified with fierce, painful longing, brief explosive instances of furious passion and intimacy and then a sad parting for a time. In that way, you can give your life to it and still have a life of your own. I think some couples spend too much time together. They flatten out the potential for experience by constant closeness. Passion builds over time like steam. Let it rage until it’s exhausted and then leave it alone to let it build up again. Why can’t love be insane and distorted? How can it be vital if it has the same threshold as normal day-to-day experience?

Why can’t you write burning letters and let your nocturnal self smolder with desire for one who is not there? Why not let the days before you see her be excruciating and ferment in your mind so on the day you go to the airport to pick her up, you’re nearly sick with anticipation? And then when desire shows the first sign of contentment, throw it back in its cage and let it slowly build itself back into a state of starved fury. Then when you are together, it all matters. So that when you look into her eyes, you lose your balance, so that when she touches you, it feels like you have never been touched before. When she says your name, you think it was she who named you. When she has gone, you bury your face in the pillow to smell her hair and you lie awake at night remembering your face in her neck, her breathing and the amazing smell of her skin. Your eyes go wet because you want her so bad and miss her so much. Now that is worth the miles and the time. That matches the inferno of life. Otherwise you poison each other with your presence day after day as you drag each other through the inevitable mundane aspects of your lives. That is the slow death that I see slapped on faces everywhere I go. It’s part of the world’s sadness that’s more empty than cold, poorly lit rooms in cities of the American night.

”
—Henry Rollins (via justsaysomethingperfect)
Apr 24, 201210,010 notes
#henry rollins #holy fuck #amazing #long distance
Apr 24, 201234 notes
#ryan gosling #oh my goodness #uterus is gone #exploded five seconds ago #holy fuck #crush
Sufjan Stevens Renames Kitchen Appliances

alexhasa:

Perishables! Come Congregate in the Cold!

Little Hot Waves, Or, Let’s Get Brain Cancer While We Wait For The Popcorn

Mix Your Drinks! (Stir! Whip! Purée!)

A Configuration of Whisks Which, When Activated, Allow Sufjan Stevens to Cook a Fluffier Omelette

Toaster (For the Toastless)

Apr 24, 20125,580 notes
#sufjan stevens #sufjan stevens renames kitchen appliances #LOL
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